I am waiting to have some kind of "Light bulb Moment". You know, when all of a sudden an idea comes to you and you're not sure why you hadn't thought of it before.
While waiting for this, I have decided that lots of things are changing. Some good. Some that hard to change, but need to be done. For instance, the hard, being letting go of some people in my life. Or at least distancing myself from them. This is hard. Especially when I spend so much time completely alone with my thoughts and have myself convinced in those moments that having toxic relationships with someone is better than not having any at all. Right? But, in the grand scheme of things, I know that I am not important to these people at the end of the day. I need to be around ones who WANT to be around me. End of story. Life is too short to waste on people who cause drama and are so negative all of the time. Distancing myself and spending more time reflecting on what is important to me, perhaps, will bring on this light bulb moment. (I keep wanting to say epiphany, but I looked up the meaning and that certainly doesn't apply like I thought it did).
It will come. I need to be patient. Patience is not a virtue that I have ever had in the past. This could take awhile.....
Cheers! :)
You are important to me!! :) You are also welcome to take some of my patience...sometimes I feel I have too much! hehe
ReplyDeleteIt's a gradual process, like weeding the garden so only what gives you pleasure remains.
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