Still in planning faze....
Beginning to think that I have an issue with finishing things that I start. I have quit every paying job that I have ever had. Albeit, every one for good reason. Lack of child care, not enough hours to be worthwhile, health reasons.....The only thing I haven't quit that I probably should is smoking. I think I hold on to that because it is PART of who I am and I like to do it.
I have learned a little bit of many small, mundane jobs. Waittressing, retail clerk, secretarial assistant. Even had a short stint as a "bra fitter". That's right folks, fitting ladies boobs into a good bra. Small ones, medium and large. Very, Very Large.
Of all of these "things" that I've learned the only conclusion that I have come to is that my sole purpose in life is to mother. The worst thing is knowing how bad I suck at that. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my children, but I am too lenient. No strict boundaries. The only thing I ask for is respect and it's a little hard to ask for when you don't feel like you've done anything to deserve it.
I have to have a passion for something. Narrowing it down with thoughts and writing about what I CAN do, LIKE to do and most importantly, would like to TRY to do. I have determined this....
I don't have a fucking clue.
But, I do know that I am going to write and I lose myself in my thoughts when I do this....hell, maybe I'm onto something......
Cheers! :)
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